Enough with the moaning

The title says it all, reading back this blog there is a lot of moaning and excuses. No more!

Today is going to be a good day. Have my hospital appointment this morning. The hospital is 45 minutes away. J is coming with me. Once have left the hospital am off to a parcel depot to pick up a delivery I missed yesterday. Will have to have lunch out as my appointment is 11.30 so will find somewhere nice to go. Then on the way back home I need to pop into Asda to order my sisters photo birthday cake. Managed to pop into my Mums yesterday and pick up some dodgy photos - oh the hairstyles - still makes me smile now.

Will have a big lunch so will get away with making the kids macaroni cheese for dinner, they will moan - they know when they have macaroni cheese its because we have been out for lunch lol, but they will live and it is half term next week.

I may or may not get some ironing done today - it will still be there tomorrow.

Thats it for me today, not very exciting. Will be digging out and sorting my camera this weekend ready for my sisters 40th. Will be getting back into taking photo's so I can start putting some colour on here. Also the signs of spring are showing and I want to catch it.

All Change

Back again - too long since I last posted but that is because a lot has happened.

Last Friday I received a crappy phone call from the company I do my 2nd job for. They had changed the rules & targets yet again and I had done something wrong. I didn't like the way I was spoken to and decided to quit there and then. I did enjoy the job but not the company I was working for. Out of the 8 people who started at the same time as me only 2 remain. We were all good at it and decent people so I figure it is their loss. At first I was gutted and worried that I had made a mistake but now I am just relieved. Sure I will miss the money but not the time in effort which actually wasn't reflected in the money I earnt. Also I was really disliking the fact that is their systems had errors which stopped us logging in then caused us to lose money then we were moaned at for not meeting all our posted hours.

Since stopped I have also realised how behind I am with everything else. Also its half-term here next week and I was struggling to juggle my hours and spend time with the kids and make my Uncles Funeral which is Tuesday. My children are 15 & 12 and I still think its important to do things together as very soon they just will not want to be with their old parents :)

So money will once again be a little bit tighter but lets face it, that is true for more or less all of us at the moment for various reasons. Now I can really concentrate on my ebay challenge, saving money by cooking more, being more organised and planning better.

Only thing is havn't quite got in a good new routine yet. Although I have more time I seem to be getting less done. Some of this is due to spending a lot of time on the phone helping sort Uncles funeral & also making all the arrangements for my sister's 40th Birthday next week. Today was a dentist appointment (filing replaced urgh) and tomorrow will be a day lost at the hospital but hopefully they will be able to tell me what caused me to be in hospital for nearly a week last november.

I have come to a decision though, 2011 was to be our year. It hasn't started great so I am going to start the New Year again on the 20th March which is my birthday.

Ooops Again

As you can see from my last post things haven't been going exactly how I wanted them too recently. But after blogging my woes, I talked myself around (yes, I know this is the first sign of madness) and started to feel more positive, then wham, another bombshell fell.

I received a phone call from my father telling me that my uncle, who had just been diagnosed with cancer at christmas, had died. He just didn't have the fight in him and gave up. I knew this but still was surprised that it happened so quickly. He leaves my 3 cousins who are 30 and under, alone as their mother died a few years ago.

It floored me and I Friday I got nothing further done. Saturday was a little better and Sunday I had a nice 2 hours to myself wandering around town while B was at Boxing.

Everything seems so hard and against us at the moment that sometimes it really feels that we should take the easy option, go bankrupt and give up.

Well today the sun has been shining, we have had a few work problems but instead of saying why us - we just concerned ourselves with the solutions. I have had a good day on my 2nd job, reaching easily my target of calls per hour and am totally over one of my sales targets.

So am not giving up, not this week anyway. Going to keep going and keep fighting.

Popped down the shops earlier and spent on a few necessary groceries, nothing that wasn't on my list found its way into my basket today. Both children have come home from school happy and J is on his way back from work. Dinner is cooking as I type, going to eat that and have a much needed early night.

So really it isn't all that bad - sometimes thinking positively is very much easier said than done.

January Blues

Well I did say I was going to use this blog as motivation didn't I - the reason that I haven't posted for ages is that I have been feeling guilty. I wanted to post showing pictures of how much I had got done & my aim was by the end of January I would have a lovely decluttered office and a wonderful place to work. I left this blog, I didn't forget about it I just thought that I wouldn't bother with it again as I had already failed in the first month of the year. No office decluttering has been done, my office is still in a mess and I have at least 6 months of personal filing to get done. I also have month ends to do for at least 3 months! So I kept thinking about that and beat myself up over it.

Now no more, although I didn't fullfill that aim I have done loads of hours on my 2nd job & kept up to date with all the business stuff. The house is relatively clean and tidy & I have been cooking loads. This week I have not touched a takeaway menu at all - no mean feat for this family.

January has now gone, thankfully, we have all had the January blues. A has done two weeks of mock GCSE's and the business has had lots of bills and horrible cashflow problems. These are still there and J is having to make a grovelling phone call to the vat office to apologise that we haven't paid the full amount as of yet. We are still suffering from the incredible bad luck we had last year and the fuel increase has hit us hard.

Anyway, now we are in February and we even had some sunshine yesterday :). Its amazing how much better that makes you feel straight away. I do not have any hours on my 2nd job today so I am having a housework day and it might be sad to say but I am quite enjoying it. Both children are at school and J is in bed having worked last month. So its just me and the little dog and a whole load of peace and quiet.  Its nice to be doing something that isn't brain taxing and you can see the benefits straight away.

So in a nutshell - honesty does sometimes hurt but they is no point in beating yourself up about things & avoiding them. My mojo and energy levels are slowing increasing and February, although a bleak and depressing month, is very short - onwards to spring.

Monday Again :(

Well the weekend went super fast again.

Last week wasn't a very productive week, kept on top of my 2nd job and just about on top of my business paperwork but nothing else was done. Was going to leave posting on here till I got something worthwhile done but that wouldn't be in the true essence of this blog. I was pre-menstrual last week and it really does affect me - everything seemed harder and really couldn't be asked.

However this week this will all change. I have a lot on the to do list today but it is achievable. My desk is clear as I tidied it last night & will be clear again tonight. Have 5 hours on my 2nd job, it is a call centre from home job which I am enjoying. I am reaching my calls per hour target but need to increase my sales which will be happening today - I am positive thinking today as you can see :)

Am very busy Monday to Thursday and the added bonus if that I am too busy to go anywhere to spend money so my aim again this week is only to spend on groceries till Thursday. I have menu planned and dont really need much till the end of the week.

I am going to be super-organised and post back later in the week with my achievements.

Another monday bites the dust!

Mondays do so roll round too quickly.

I am always busy on Mondays so the plus side is they do pass very quickly.

Had a good weekend, was busy Saturday with work then housework but had a lovely relaxing Sunday. Took my son B to boxing, we then have to kill 2 hours in town as its not worth driving home. Treated myself to a Starbucks and a little look round the shops. Bought myself a pen from Paperchase (one of my most favourite shops in the world) for only a £1.

Came home and had a chilled afternoon reading & watching TV with the family before cooking a lovely roast dinner. One of my aims this year is to spend better quality time with the family & also take time out to relax. I was ill in November last year and I am sure it was because I was never switching off.

No major amounts have been done towards the office de clutter mission so far. Have tidied one pin board and cleared out a load of books. Still will devote some more time this week. Have a lot to go but am quite organised.

Made dinner tonight with leftovers and have menu planned for the week. This makes so much difference to our shopping bill and there is very little, if any food waste. Also didn't spend any money today. Have to have my car serviced on Friday so aim to get to Thursday with money only being spent on necessary groceries.

One major thing that happened today is that we have booked a mid-week break for August to Center Parcs. I found the price quite reasonable and we are all very excited and really looking forward to it. We now have something good to look forward to and focus on. Have a very motivating picture of where we are staying on my pin board in front of my desk so when I am feeling frustrated & bored with work I can look at it and remind myself what I am working for.

Mega Quick Update Am Too Darn Busy

Wow, having a productive organised week so far.

Am having to do loads of hours on my second job. Am contracted to do 20 hours per week and having to catch up this week due to the Bank Holiday (am so glad to be back to normal now). As usual having more to do is making me manage my time better.

Am completing office essentials before 9am every morning and then spending the rest of the day receiving phone calls. Am finished about the time the kids come home from school so then making dinner and spending some time with the family.

Has been made easier in that J, my partner, is home and doing the housework!

Have half hour breaks throughout my working day and have just done a spot of de cluttering in my first break - I am so on a roll.

Have a nice pile of books now for the charity shop as now I have my Kindle there is no need to keep them. I have to admit that I was a little shocked by all the 'self-help' books I seem to have accumulated.

Have done a load of sale shopping online so no reason to hit the shopping centres though I do admit I keep feeling the pull of them - so am glad am too busy to get out the house for any decent amount of time at the moment.

Anyway, work is calling so will get on. 2011 has started well on the organised front and want to keep the momentum going..........just wont think about the ironing mountain for now ;)