January Blues

Well I did say I was going to use this blog as motivation didn't I - the reason that I haven't posted for ages is that I have been feeling guilty. I wanted to post showing pictures of how much I had got done & my aim was by the end of January I would have a lovely decluttered office and a wonderful place to work. I left this blog, I didn't forget about it I just thought that I wouldn't bother with it again as I had already failed in the first month of the year. No office decluttering has been done, my office is still in a mess and I have at least 6 months of personal filing to get done. I also have month ends to do for at least 3 months! So I kept thinking about that and beat myself up over it.

Now no more, although I didn't fullfill that aim I have done loads of hours on my 2nd job & kept up to date with all the business stuff. The house is relatively clean and tidy & I have been cooking loads. This week I have not touched a takeaway menu at all - no mean feat for this family.

January has now gone, thankfully, we have all had the January blues. A has done two weeks of mock GCSE's and the business has had lots of bills and horrible cashflow problems. These are still there and J is having to make a grovelling phone call to the vat office to apologise that we haven't paid the full amount as of yet. We are still suffering from the incredible bad luck we had last year and the fuel increase has hit us hard.

Anyway, now we are in February and we even had some sunshine yesterday :). Its amazing how much better that makes you feel straight away. I do not have any hours on my 2nd job today so I am having a housework day and it might be sad to say but I am quite enjoying it. Both children are at school and J is in bed having worked last month. So its just me and the little dog and a whole load of peace and quiet.  Its nice to be doing something that isn't brain taxing and you can see the benefits straight away.

So in a nutshell - honesty does sometimes hurt but they is no point in beating yourself up about things & avoiding them. My mojo and energy levels are slowing increasing and February, although a bleak and depressing month, is very short - onwards to spring.